Character Strengths

So while I ponder over what to write about, here's a survey you can try out (it's ~200 questions long though..). As I know any description I write will not do it justice, here's what they say on their site:

The VIA Survey of Character (VIA-IS) is the world's most scientifically validated tool* for measuring character strengths. The 240 questions elicit your unique constellation of strengths and identifies your top 5 signature strengths. Signature strengths are those you most frequently express.

----> Take the Survey Here <----
Yes you'll have to register. :\
Also, I recommend you not do the Brief Strengths Test, as it is much less accurate and will just be a waste of your time.

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Here are my results, in brief:

Top Five:
Appreciation of beauty and excellence
Gratitude
Modesty and humility
Fairness, equity, and justice
Judgment, critical thinking, and open-mindedness

And for fun,

Bottom Five**:
Hope, optimism, and future-mindedness
Social intelligence
Industry, diligence, and perseverance
Bravery and valor
Forgiveness and mercy

My friends like to kid around and say that I'm a cowardly, vengeful person. :p

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*I'd like to note that although this test is scientifically validated, as a personal tool (and without professional evaluation), we can only look at it in hindsight (as in, given the results, we look at ourselves to see if it fits us. Often, we will 'make' it fit us.).
In short, take your results with a grain of salt.

** "Bottom Five" does not mean "Lack Of". It just simply means they did not score as high as your top five. Nothing more. Most people I've shown this survey interpret it as that, and it is sort of funny how they try to make the qualities link together, so I just let them be. :]

Black Markers

I'm feeling completely unmotivated.
My goals are becoming ever so fuzzy, my mind becoming blank.
I procrastinate as much as ever - if not more - yet the biggest difference, I find, is I don't feel guilty about it anymore. It feels alright to procrastinate, that it's not a big deal if I waste a couple hours (in exchange for lower grades).

It feels like I've worked so hard all my life, for.. a blank. Why am I working so hard, when it'll amount to nothing anyway?


I'm going to outright say that I am possibly feeling this way from a fairly large amount of negative feedback I got today (pretty much failed a test - I can confidently say it was the worst test I've written in my life thus far - and screwed up pretty badly at work).
My academic and career goals have never been defined before. This odd lack of motivation I'm feeling may be preceding the realization that I only have two more years to go until I am forced to draw over those fuzzy lines, redo them with a solid marker.


And there goes another hour.